A wet forest just above freezing

20130929_143307On my way home from Lincoln yesterday, the pull of the forest overpowered me as I went over the top of MacDonald Pass. I turned in to the Continental Divide Trailhead, pulled my bow out of the truck, donned all the warm weather gear I had, and wandered in to spend some time in the creation.

Razor-sharp wind whipped across the mountaintop, and cut through my thin gloves quickly. Slush and snow covered the trail from the parking area forward, making careful attention to my footing a necessity.

Before I even reached the forest, I glanced up from picking the least-slick spot to put my foot and saw a brown shape moving against the trees. Like lightning my head came up. I lifted my bow as the animal came into view.

Big!

That’s no muley, I thought. That’s a… cow. Not a cow elk, a bovine. Boooo!

Snow covered the ground in the forest, but the treeline stopped the wind. drops of melting snow fell from every tree in the 38-degree weather. Several trees brought low by wind blocked the trail, and made picking my way forward a very slow, wet endeavor.

Eventually I found a stump to sit on and see if any deer came by. None did, but the forest made up for their absence. The song of distant wind beyond the trees beat the sound of tires on a highway, hands down. Trees creaked, ice-cold snowmelt dripped, and God loved me.

What creates contentment?

So a journalist named Adam Weinstein has written an essay that I find interesting. It’s written in response to something I read — and obviously so did he — about how people of his generation (Gen Y) are spoiled and have too big of a sense of entitlement and shouldn’t whine so much about not being rich and famous yet.

I don’t want to express an opinion about the original article. I think all of us suffer from our own self-delusions and such, it’s not unique to one generation.

What I do find interesting is the attitude Mr. Weinstein expresses in his essay. He describes himself as broke, underemployed, perpetually renting, burdened by student debt, etc. He seems, from his essay, very very disappointed with his financial position in life.

Now, I don’t know what he makes, and I’m not going to put what I make on a blog. But it’s really hard for me to imagine that he makes less than me. I make more than the average per capita income in Montana, but far far less than President Obama’s definition of “the rich.” Less by a decimal place and then some.

And yet I’m pretty content.

Yeah, I’m always shaking the piggy bank the last day or two before payday. Yeah, my condo is a long way from the home I want. Yes, I could easily find a way to put more money to very good use.

But basically, I’m alright. Could I use more money? Sure. Is the lack of it hurting me? No.

So Mr. Weinstein has had a pretty cool writing career. He’s writing for a lot of national publications (obviously different ones than I would write for), and making a living at it. I once wanted to be a professional writer — maybe someday I still will.

But from my perspective, it looks like he’s a very fortunate man. He seems to have a lot of things I wish I had — not least a family.

(No doubt that family contributes to the greater sense of financial hardship he feels, but still, it seems like a great gift.)

So why do I feel content, and he feels broke and trapped by debt?

I am not a better money manager than he is, I promise you.

I’m sure the authors of the original article that he was responding to would have an idea of the answer to my question. But I don’t like their answer. It’s belittling and not meant to treat him with respect.

He’s a professional writer, has a family, has people all around the country reading his work and having their politics influenced by what he writes…

I’m a small state party ED who doesn’t make very much money, has almost infinitely-less influence than outside observers seem to think, and is still patiently waiting in terms of family.

By everything that I wanted when I was a child, I should envy him. Instead, he feels trapped and broke, and I feel like I’m blessed beyond imagining.

I’m not going to answer the question of why he feels bad and I feel good. All I’m going to do is thank Jesus for the contentment I have.

(Update: I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised that LinkedIn says I’m 3 degrees removed from him. Probably one of the Romney campaign guys I worked with knows someone who knows him.)

Broken chains falling like rain

There is a scene in The Matrix. Morpheus is held captive in a skyscraper, chained to a chair, interrogated by Agent Smith with two other Agents helping to guard him. Trinity and Neo come to rescue him, flying in a helicopter. They fly the chopper from the roof down to the room in the skyscraper where Morpheus is held, and Neo begins firing with a minigun — a Gatling gun in .30 caliber with six rotating barrels that spews out six thousand rounds per minute — 100 bullets every second.

The camera shifts during the rescue, as Neo is firing. From underneath the helicopter, we see spent shell casings from the Gatling gun plummeting to earth. There are uncounted thousands of the, falling like rain, like a torrential downpour.

One day while I was worshiping, God showed me that scene, as if I were watching the movie. But instead of spent shell casings, the there were broken chains. Uncountable thousands of broken chain links falling to earth.

That is God’s desire for his people. Chains of addiction and fear and anger that have held us back, broken and shattered in such numbers that they fall like rain, the noise of them like steel hail.

Being under authority is hard

Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them. Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Luke 6:27-30

This is really hard for me. I want to fight. I want to resist. The government has wrongly taken away my freedom to make my own health care choices. Resistance comes very easily to me. Outrage comes very easily to me. I want to resist. I want to take back what was stolen from me.

Following Jesus isn’t easy. You don’t just say, “I’m a Christian,” and all of a sudden you stop making wrong choices, and everything you do is perfect. It’s not like that. It’s never like that. I’m a Christian because I make mistakes and need help, not because I never make mistakes.

Submitting to unjust governance is the hardest part of following Jesus. But he did it, and he wants us to be like him. He submitted to an unjust ruling by the government — even to the point of his own death.

Jesus went out to a mountainside to pray

Jesus went off by himself to pray. Those times figured prominently in his relationship with the Father. He often chose to enjoy places with mountains and trees — he often chose to be alone in God’s creation.

One of those days Jesus went out to a mountainside to pray, and spent the night praying to God. — Luke 6:12

Resting in a mountain meadow watching clouds inch across a clear blue sky, I know why Jesus did it that way. Why it is the way it is, I don’t claim to know. But I know this: I hear God better when I’m out on a mountainside.

The shot I didn’t take

Yesterday, after an exhaustive day of hunting without seeing any game, we saw a little muley doe on a hillside as we drove back.

“This is almost certainly not going to work,” I told my hunting partner. Then I got out of my truck and grabbed my bow.

Steep fails to describe that hill. I tested my weight before every single step, to see if my foot would stay, or if I’d come sliding down with a razor-sharp broadhead flailing around. I muscled my way up it, all the while in full view of the doe, who just watched me coming up.

I neared her level on the hill, but still many yards of horizontal distance separated us. She headed up the hill further, revealing a smaller fawn following behind her. I clambered my way towards her, slipping the whole time. She moved up with every step I took, but also toward me in the horizontal dimension.

The moment hung there like a picture.

Her: silhouetted against the skyline, perfectly broadside to me, fifty yards away. I saw the gray fur in detail. I saw the big floppy ears that make the head look small.

Me: firm footing, release hooked to the bow string, thinking and praying.

I let the bow drop to my side and didn’t take the shot. Fifty yards is an awful long shot for me. I don’t like the risk of wounding an animal, or killing it in such a way that it dies over the course of a day and gets away from me before it dies.

A whole day of sweating and climbing, scouting and tracking, peels away in an instant until all that’s left is one moment. In that moment, we find me looking at an animal, and deciding I would rather go home empty handed than risk wasting one of the animals God gave me dominion over.

Forcing love

Whenever I interact with any individual, I want my part of the interaction to be loving. No matter who they are, no matter what sins they may or may not be working through in their life, I pray that I will love them.

Whenever the government legally requires me to love, it commits a grievous evil that hurts me, hurts the people I interact with, and causes pain to God.

Freely chosen love is the way to follow Jesus. Trying to force love is morally wrong.

Private Property in the Bible

And my princes will no longer oppress my people but will allow the people of Israel to possess the land according to their tribes. –Ezekiel 45:8

A government that does not allow the people to possess land is oppressive. Private property ownership is a scriptural principle, and it is a facet of a government that does not offend him.

Constitution Day

I was supposed to give a speech for Constitution Day today, but the rain interfered with my plan. I don’t want the speech to go to waste, so here it is.

When we Americans talk about our constitution, we tend to think of “The Constitution” as just it’s name. But today, I think it’s important to remember that constitution is a word of the English language. Our constitution is called a constitution because that word represents what the document does.

Some definitions of the word “constitution:” The way in which a thing is composed or made up. The act or process of constituting – establishment. The state of being constituted – formation.

The reason I cite these definitions is to make a point that too often goes unmentioned or forgotten in today’s media. These definitions all have to do with the act of making something which did not previously exist.

The federal government did not exist before the constitution was written. It had no form. It was a nullity. It was void. There was no such thing.

Our federal government exists solely because we created it out of nothing.

Even though we’re here today to celebrate the constitution, I think it’s a good idea to cite a famous quote from the declaration of independence. It further emphasizes this point about the fact that the constitution created out of nothing a federal government.

“To secure these rights, governments are instituted among men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed.”

We’ve all heard that quote before. In fact, it’s so frequently heard that I think the words may have lost their meaning for some. So with your indulgence, I’ll take a moment or two to talk about what the words mean.

Governments are instituted among men: The government does not exist until humans form it.

To secure these rights: Our rights existed before the government did. The government doesn’t give us rights. The constitution doesn’t give us rights. Our rights are ours, and we, the people created the federal government for the express purpose of protecting our rights.

Just powers: A Government power to do something may be just or unjust. The fact that it is the government taking the action does not in itself make the action just. The fact that the founders felt it necessary to specify how “just” powers are derived implies the fact that there are powers of the opposite kind.

From the consent of the governed: On its own, the government has no power, no right, no authority to tell us what to do. On our own, humans have every right to run their own lives and do whatever they want. There is one and only one way in which the government may acquire any just power over us. If we choose to permit it. If I say, “Government, I accept your authority to boss me around on this subject,” then the government has that power. But if I never gave that consent, the government never gained that power. If the government exercises a power to which consent was never given, that power is not a just power.

My friends, our constitution is the document by which we, the people gave our consent. When our forefathers sent their delegates to the convention that created it, consent was given. When our forefathers voted to ratify the constitution, consent was given.

If a power is not mentioned in the constitution, consent was never given.

And that, my friends, is the beauty of our constitution. We can know, at any time, what is right and good for our government to do. We need never have any doubt about what’s the right course for our federal government. We need only look to our constitution, and we can know for certain what political matters are right and wrong.

In this age of talking heads, and angry pundits, and a capital city filled with babble, we are blessed. We need not expect that the talking heads will tell us what to do. We need not look to pundits for guidance. We need only read the constitution, and we can know everything we need to know about what course the federal government ought to take.

The good kind of tired

Last weekend I paid my first visit to the Bob Marshall Wilderness. I didn’t go much more than a mile or two over the border, but the beauty of it still struck me.

The area was largely burnt out; my friends and I were near the end of our trek before we saw any living trees. One thinks of dead, burned forests as ugly. One is wrong. A haunting, desolate beauty whispered all around us.

We found huge moose tracks about the size of a human hand. The maker of the print no doubt rested along the river we walked past, but we never caught a glimpse. Just the hint of what we might find someday turned a disappointing hunting trip into a memory.